Flash Back

أول تدوينة بعد الانقطاع وتغيير اسم المدونة..

ليس لشيء إلا لتفريغ بعض الكبت

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ولأن أحد ما ذكرني أن لي رسالة 

وإن كانت تافهة في نظر البعض

فإنها قد تسعد البعض الاخر

That's is aflash back since my last ِArticle! 

Okai , for along time i didn't know what's my psychological structure and this always bothered me , many of times i can't understand myself , and also can't understand people around..

After awhile things went so complicated , and i was just saying , oh yes everything is gonna be alright !

I Kept myself to the last hope! Started to lose my memory in bad way more than i was doing before and that's was also so so effective on this case !

I found out after awhile , that i'm the bad one , i use people !

Or may be not i don't , may be people do!

Okai as i my both sides won't agree with eachother i'll not argue !

but what i'm sure about that , I have something wrong in ME! or shall i say Both ME! 

I got serious problem in my relationships with human ,even my family , i can't stop losing people..!!

Many times i don't even know the reason and many times i'm not brave enough to hurt them by asking why they did!

Or may be i'm like some friend said to me , you gave the people rank they don't even deserve ,no matter if u say that you don't give athing for their presence , but u really do ..!!

Some complicatous things happened to me , people said i'm more than bro/sis to you just Quit that with no respect for this brotherhood , or at least the respect for the soul of Me ! Also people said yeah you mean alot to me after awhile i found out that i know nothing for them !

still my notes about myself don't make any sense !! and that's not strange ! I'm not psychopath by the much i'm human !

I don't look for answers , or may be i do and deny ! or may be nothing more than answers i can get!

Or may be it's acurse to have aHeart in human flesh !

That's was aperiod of my life and it will be 100000 repetitions , to the end of it..!

and okai , i'm alive now ! so i don't bother myself by being better , or may be i do!

okai i don't care for people , or may be I do !!! 

May be I'm not me , Or may be I'm ! 

Okai you Got To Know I AM " LIO , RomIO , LEGION"

Good night!